I am missing my parents ... a lot. I don't get to see them too often...
Here's the story:
Early 2009 (my senior year) my parents put their house up for sale. I was thinking it would be a couple years before it sold, considering the economy at the time, but that wasn't the case. I had decided that I wasn't going to move with them; that I was going to stay in my hometown where my boyfriend, Justin, was in order to stay with him. I knew it would be harder, being 18, on my own, and...jobless. But we did it, Justin and I (and a friend of ours) rented an apartment in the complex right next to my parents subdivision (so really I moved 500 feet to the left LOL.) After getting the apartment, I still went over and visited with my parents every day, and about mid-August 2009, they told me their house sold.... They had dropped the price 30% in order to sell.
So, after they told me the house sold, they immediately started packing their things up for the big move. They had actually made some kind of deal with the buyers that they'd be out within 3 weeks, instead of the standard 4.
Fast forwarding a little- now here I am, almost 2 years later, missing them more then ever. Nothing huge has happened in my life to make me miss them more now, I just do. My dad used to come down and visit, since he was unemployed, he had the spare time to help my grandma out, so I'd see him every other weekend....but since my mom works crazy hours in the medical field, I didn't get to see her for like 3 months at one point :/
I do call them almost everyday just to talk to them, but it's obviously not the same. I guess the other thing that makes me really miss them is, we go visit Justin's (my boyfriend) parents every other day or every couple of days, and seeing his family just makes me miss mine and reminds me of the fact that I can't...
Honestly, I'm not sure if I'm going to post this...I think I'm just typing it all up to get it out there, since it feels kind of like it's been bottling up. The other day I was in this horribly sad mood all day...and I couldn't really put my finger on what it was the first half...then I started thinking "it's because I'm not working and have too much time to think of things"...but then as I was going to sleep, I finally figured it out. I missed my mom and dad....
It's nothing like I'm not going to see them again...and I know there are other people out there in much worse conditions then I'm in...but...I don't know.
My mom and dad and I did NOT have a good relationship up until I moved out... which sucks, because now I can't see them. It's just feels like one of those "it's not fair" situations... With going from an "I hate you, and am never talking to you again" relationships, to actually having the "friends with your parents" relationship, where I talk to them about everything.... It's just not fair to me. I feel like I don't have "that" family dynamic anymore...and honestly it makes me sad and slightly jealous at the same time when we go visit with Justin's parents... because I don't have that :-(
But I did call my mom today and talked to her for a while. She told me that they are going to come down for my dad's birthday (St. Patty's Day) to celebrate at my grandma's house...so I guess that's not too far, but doesn't seem close either.
Sigh.... anyway...thanks for listening to me ramble... I just had to "get it out" :/